Fun with Math and Magick

Since yesterday's entry was so lame (due to the confusion I engorged myself with) I decided to give you some treats today. I'll start with just a normal little entry, boring to some enlightening to others, then later in the day I'll give you something special.
Today I want to talk a little about what I learned recently about mathematics.
A couple weeks ago I decided it might be a fun exercise to learn calculus in a week. I was entirely confident in myself when I started but I soon realized that my basic algebra and trigonometry competence was seriously wanting. I did end up learning all of the principles and basic applications of calculus within a week but I did need to take a few more days to brush up on my algebra so I could become more proficient at solving problems. So now I know calculus after only a couple of weeks. I'm no expert at it but I'd say I'm doing pretty good for someone who was recently completely deficient when it came to math.
Anyways, the reason I wanted to learn math in the first place was to get a hold of what math reveals about reality. I wanted to watch the mechanism of the mind in action and I figured numbers and graphs would be an alright place to start looking. It was all fun and games for a while but then yesterday I started to realize that math is as limited as anything else. Math is just another "language game" as Wittgenstein would say. It is not the purity of math that reveals anything, just the fact that it is a language. The only difference, however, between regular games and math games is the fact that very few people can find any attachment to numbers whereas certain words can be very emotionally charged (especially in combination, like "baby rape") It is language that creates the mind and the mind that creates reality. Is this true? I dunno. The great book of the Rota seems to suggest something along those lines but who knows. Right? So we can see the mind in a naked state by doing math problems.

Anyways, so yesterday I got a little jolt in my guts when I realized this. It was a good feeling knowing that I've cracked another piece of the puzzle (at least superficially) but I'm still not satisfied with it. Math contains more than that. I know it does, I can feel it. That statement in itself is a reflection of my current philosophy (whatever that means anymore) but I'll leave that for another day. For now lets consider this feeling and where it led me.
This morning after getting out of bed and molesting my girlfriend I started thinking about these "language games" of math and how they relate to the regular "language games" we play. I realized that the math games differ from common language games in that they can be played with without attachment. We can all play around with the calculus without investing any emotion or becoming fixated to ideas that can become filters for our experience. This is very useful as a training of the mind or as a meditation. So we can look at math as an exercise rather than a topic. It must be placed in the same category as meditation practices, brain gym type stuff, image streaming, painting and the like. We shouldn't be studying math, we should be practicing it. It allows us to access a very clear state of perception, uncontaminated by bias or experience. It allows us to experience pure thought. This is especially useful for those of us who want to reach states of perception that are not only free of bias but free of any sort of thought whatsoever. For instance during the operation of the sacred magic of Abramelin the mage. The practitioner needs to keep his focus. He needs to stay in a state of purity and receptivity while he awaits the movement of his angel. Unfortunately for him though it can get boring and sometimes boredom can cause attachment just as fast as any stimulus. So we can recommend math. Just get a few exercise books and work through them. Fun and safe!
Play around with this. Do some exercises in linear algebra or differential calculus and just watch how your mind works while you're doing them compared to how it normally works (even if you're not interested in attaining any sort of enlightenment). I think anyone could find it to be just as developmentally beneficial as poetry or painting.

I think that's all for now. Have fun.